HEALTH
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Searching for the Sun
If you have never read my Bio page on my website (…not mad at ya…), you might wonder why I chose My Search for the Sun as the title of my blog. I knew I didn’t want my blog to be completely centered around IVF or infertility because it was just a season I was going through. Instead, I wanted my blog to be about more than just one topic in my life…I wanted it to be about my entire life and the struggles I have faced and will face. I chose My Search for the Sun as the title because, to me, it means choosing to find the good in the bad. I’m sure there are…
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Covid and Self-Care
There has been a big self-care movement going on for a while now and I am all for it. I personally am someone who thinks it’s important to “love” yourself, but more importantly to take care of yourself. The problem is, I don’t think I’ve ever truly known what it means or how to do it. I have, however, experienced the effects on my body when I wasn’t taking care of myself. Some of the major health issues I have had in my life could absolutely be tied back to stress. But the million-dollar question for me always is…how do I truly reduce stress in my life? And even more…how do I take care of…
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Don’t Feel Sorry for Me.
I started questioning myself yesterday after I shared my emotions about starting the IVF process again on social media. Am I sharing too much personal information with people I don’t know? Am I putting myself out there to be criticized? Then I remembered….I stopped caring what other people thought of me about 6 years ago. You see, I’ve been through quite a few tough times (I know I keep saying it, but it’s true). One of the most significantly traumatic times I’ve been through (yes, there are still others you don’t know about) was when I went through a really bad episode of my Grave’s Disease. It was so bad that…
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The Effects of IVF on Your Mental Health
I’m an early riser. There is nothing I love more than to wake up at 5am (ish), make my coffee and have quiet time in the house to do whatever I want. I could spend hours searching for random things on the Internet like organization ideas (I love organizing!), photography tips or anything and everything on Anthroplogie’s website, and I don’t care because it’s my time. Ever since I received the bad news about my most recent IVF cycle, I haven’t had the desire to wake up in the mornings. I could just sleep and sleep forever. (It would be better if my dogs weren’t so dang needy, then I…
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Infertility=Grief
I lost my dad 9 years ago to pancreatic cancer. I had never experienced a loss like that before. I remember feeling overwhelmed with sadness at random times, out of nowhere. There were times when I cried so hard I couldn’t catch my breath. The things that I loved doing, didn’t bring me joy anymore. Nothing really brought me joy…at least for a certain period of time. I received news from my IVF doctor the day after my 40th birthday that my 2nd egg retrieval was unsuccessful. The irony of it all is that moments before…literally seconds before…I pushed the “Post” button on a Facebook post I wrote where I…
