I lost my dad 9 years ago to pancreatic cancer.  I had never experienced a loss like that before.  I remember feeling overwhelmed with sadness at random times, out of nowhere.  There were times when I cried so hard I couldn’t catch my breath. The things that I loved doing, didn’t bring me joy anymore. Nothing really brought me joy…at least for a certain period of time.  I received news from my IVF doctor the day after my 40th birthday that my 2nd egg retrieval was unsuccessful.  The irony of it all is that moments before…literally seconds before…I pushed the “Post” button on a Facebook post I wrote where I…