LIFE LESSONS
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Searching for the Sun
If you have never read my Bio page on my website (…not mad at ya…), you might wonder why I chose My Search for the Sun as the title of my blog. I knew I didn’t want my blog to be completely centered around IVF or infertility because it was just a season I was going through. Instead, I wanted my blog to be about more than just one topic in my life…I wanted it to be about my entire life and the struggles I have faced and will face. I chose My Search for the Sun as the title because, to me, it means choosing to find the good in the bad. I’m sure there are…
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My Year-Long Journey
February 18th, 2021 (The day after my 40th birthday): I will never forget that day. My husband and I were in Sedona, Arizona to celebrate my 40th birthday. We had just spent the previous day (my birthday) doing all the things I love: hiking (or more like walking on a trail, lol), drinking coffee, winery hopping, exploring places we’d never been, seeing beautiful scenery, shopping for art, eating delicious food. My heart was full. We were anxiously waiting on the results from our genetic testing, but we felt pretty positive about it. We had 3 embryos getting tested, so we thought for sure we would at least get one “normal” (euploid) embryo. …
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Life Update: 12.6.21
It feels a little foreign to me to type words on my keyboard with the intention of writing a blog post. It’s been awhile. And the thing is, I don’t really know why it’s been so long. Well, that’s not entirely true I guess. I do know I needed a break from it. There was a moment a couple months ago when I stopped enjoying it and started focusing on things that weren’t important. I felt like I always had to put myself on social media because that’s what “they” say you need to do if you want people to see your blog. The problem was it wasn’t necessarily who…
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Find Your Community.
I’ve often mentioned that one of the best things about starting a blog is how much I have been able to connect with other people who are going through (or have gone through) similar things. Sometimes I have previously been aware of their struggles and sometimes I haven’t. Either way, each story that is shared with me inspires me in a new and different way. A few weeks ago, someone I have known for literally almost all of my life reached out to me after I shared a post to my Instagram story about being a childless woman. She shared the struggles that she and her husband had with trying…
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The Desires of Your Heart
I am a dreamer and an idealist. If I have free time, most likely I will be daydreaming about the beautiful Italian countryside or watching a sunrise in Sedona or fantasizing about the next big adventure I can plan for Rob and me. I love to explore this big, beautiful world and I love to dream. I don’t know why I’m like that, I guess it’s just who I am. When I was in college, I dreamed of either moving to Europe or backpacking through it…even if it was just for a few months. The daydreamer in me envisioned myself sitting at a café in Paris, drinking coffee, smoking cigarettes…
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Go to Napa.
One of my best girlfriends has been trying to plan a girl’s trip to Napa for years. She finally booked it for last August and then Covid happened, which caused her to cancel. She has always invited me to join, but each year she was planning it, there was something going on in my life which forced me to say no. Two years ago I was getting married…last year we were in the midst of trying to get pregnant and about to start IVF….and then this year she asked again and my answer felt different. After my last failed IVF cycle in February, I decided that I was going to change…
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Covid and Self-Care
There has been a big self-care movement going on for a while now and I am all for it. I personally am someone who thinks it’s important to “love” yourself, but more importantly to take care of yourself. The problem is, I don’t think I’ve ever truly known what it means or how to do it. I have, however, experienced the effects on my body when I wasn’t taking care of myself. Some of the major health issues I have had in my life could absolutely be tied back to stress. But the million-dollar question for me always is…how do I truly reduce stress in my life? And even more…how do I take care of…
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5 Pieces of Marriage Advice We Still Use
Rob and I have been married for almost 2 years. I’m not lying or even exaggerating a little when I say that being married to Rob is the best gift I’ve ever been given. I’m not trying to make people nauseous with a bunch of lovey dovey crap…I’m just speaking my truth. I can also say in the same breath, while my marriage to my best friend is amazing, it’s also been very difficult at times. What they say is true- marriage takes work. I do believe if you pick the right person and put work into it, your marriage should be 1,000 times more amazing than difficult though. I don’t know…
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Get Out on the Dance Floor.
I’ve been reflecting a lot about dating and the beginning of relationships lately. I’m not exactly sure why, but I think it’s because it was in April (2017) that I finally was ready to begin dating again. Thankfully for the last time in my life. Since I bare my soul to you about everything else, I might as well mention that I was in a very long-term relationship before I met my husband. We were never married. It was off and on for many years. Finally, four years ago around this time, we ended our “relationship” for good. I wasn’t 100% ready to start dating again, but I felt like I…
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Gratitude
I’m an anxious person by nature. I tend to worry about the million things that could go wrong. I’m an overthinker. I’m a hypochondriac. My husband is the complete opposite of me and I envy him so much for that. There was a period of time after we got married when I was really stressed out (Infertility, IVF, COVID, quarantine, work…you get the picture…). My husband bluntly told me that I was being negative and it was hard to be around all the time. (My husband doesn’t share his feelings too much, so when he does, you better believe I listen!) After that conversation, I reflected and realized I wanted…
